I'm Ashton, a 20 year old trans male who isn't out. We've recently moved to Turkey and I've been trying to get away from my abusive family for so many years now but everytime something would happen and I get stuck. I believe this is finally my chance to do so and I will stand up and make my way from now on. I'm trying to raise as much money as I can either it be for moving out and living, a binder, top surgery and hopefully bottom surgery as well or just something to start my life and journey with ... at this point im desperate for anything but I really need to get away from them. I've had little to no luck when it comes to jobs here in Turkey either it be because of the language or being a foreigner. And I really need to do something .. because its either they'll be the death of me or my own body will.do it by itself. Im already very underweight and ive been losing even more these few months and ive struggling with alot of things and pains in different part of my body and when I try to eat so my body doesnt shut down when it gets really bad. I cant keep food down..Either I cant eat or my body refuses to cope with me when I sometimes try to do something about it. I want to get better. I want to try because I've been down for so long that I've reached this point..where my ... body and organs are already starting to give up on me and haven't been functioning well. I havent done much in life since ive been struggling so much but for onve ... want try this time. I really do. I want to try and get better ... somehow. I don't know how but I want to try.

I think it'd be better if I just travel to the United States since itd be wiser to do so when it comes to where i'm from because itll be difficult to keep up with visas and these things you need to do when being in a foreign country. I was born in Virginia, USA but ive never lived in America so..I think.. now..I have to go back so I can pick myself up. I have no idea what to do...but I do need to move...

I hope..this reaches people and...I hope I can make it.... somehow..